reflections

Unbelievably, today is New Year's Eve (day). 2009 is officially the fastest year I've had thus far. People say that as you get older, the years go quicker, but I think that this year went especially fast for several reasons. For starters, the first 5 months of 2008 were so brutal that it dragged, so by contrast, 2009 flew. I also think the difference in my schedule made it fly too. It seemed like I was only in Albany every other week. Between training, vacations, and weekend getaways, there was never time to be in the moment- every moment was spent planning for the next.

I started my new jopb about 3 weeks ago and one of the main perks is that I will no longer be travelling all over the state. Of course, the work atmosphere and the pay doesn't hurt either. :) Even though the job comes with more responsibility, and will require that I learn quite a bit of new info, I still think I will be more relaxed, and so with that, there are a few things in 2010 that I would like to work on, or, resume.

I have an annual ritual at the end of each year, where I write down the things from the year that I would like not to bring with me into the new year. I write them on flash paper, light them on fire, throw them into the air, and poof, they're gone. This year I let go of control and perfection. Nothing like starting the new year off with a challenge.

In addition to letting go of some things, there are some things I want to add.

Prior to having the travel at my last job take over my life I took dance classes, and I would like to start doing that again.

I would like to spend at least one evening, at least ever other week, painting, making jewelry or other crafts.

I will open a bank account to start saving for having a baby.

And I think I'd like to start getting more involved with politics again. Nothing involved, but making more phone calls and sending more letters rather than just signing petitions.

I also think that giving up control and perfection will be a huge challenge, but if I can do it, it will ultimately lead to a slower, more present, and more enjoyable new year. :)